This is my group’s Senior Project Video. We spent seven hours of editing and three afternoons and evenings filming this so we treasure this a lot. What we learned that through all the hard times, our friends will be there for us. It’s cliche but it is really true. Please enjoy! :D
1. My family has been preparing me to be a fair and good person even though they don’t know it. My parents are more religious than some and I grew up having to go to Bible class and Vietnamese Language classes at my church Even though I have rebelled and dreaded everything they made me do, I had to suck it up ans accept my responsibilities. Because of the benefits I’ve gained for listening to them, I choose not to ruin my life with sinful things and have become a person with good morals and fairness.
2. I have not accomplished things in my life that I had thought was impossible because I either have not accomplished them and/or the things I have accomplished I did not think was impossible. I have been told that I set my my goals way too high-therefore impossible. Being the person I am, I can’t help but be picky and set my standards high for myself. I don’t know if it’s the lack of confidence or too much confidence but that sense of accomplishment hasn’t come yet. Of course I have felt like I’ve succeeded when I gained awards and honors but I did not think those were impossible.
3. Many things in my future seem impossible for me right now. Because I set my bar so high, my dreams feel so far away. It seems impossible for me to ever become an idol- a singer, dancer, performer, role-model, actress, and host all in one. Although I have confidence in myself, I look at all the idols of today and they have that radiance and talent I lack in.
4. I look back into Junior year and I have to admit that all the depression and problems then were all my own fault. After moping and wallowing in self-pity, I vowed to not make myself suffer anymore so Senior year came and I picked myself up. I now boast a much higher GPA and my happiness is through-the-roof. I do feel bad when I think about it but I turn it around and make it the opposite end of my goals.
5. The beginning crack is Freshman year and the end crack is when students graduate in Senior year. In between is self-explanatory. Between those cracks, students do what they need to proceed to the next crack and when they’re almost there (as in near graduation), they realize that these four years have gone by so quickly. For some students, their quick experience seems pointless. I believe most of us students feel like although these years are fast, the experience was one-of-a-kind. Through school events and difficult exams, the times in in high school help build peoples characters and will affect them for the rest of their life. There will be regrets like my bad mistakes but we look on it and learn from them.
6. My next section in my sidewalk is college and work. I’ll finally be given more freedom and real-life will hit me hard but college, work, and new relationships will come my way.
7. I think I will feel the same way, if not more, about this next experience. Problems will arise ten-fold and I know I’ll end up having regrets. My time will be fleeting but I probably won’t recognize it until I face my next experience.
It’s finally the end of the year and Seniors only have five days left. WHEW. CP English with Ziebarth has been a great experience for me since I haven’t experienced any classes like this. The first semester was likeable and I adapted to it easier because it was more like other classes I’ve had. This semester was so different! When I read that my schedule was changed and that I was transferred to a class that honestly gave me a bad impression, I was devastated. Thank God I had the courage and strength to do what I could not have done before- I tried my hardest to get back into Mr. Ziebarth’s Period 2 CP English class. Thanks to Mr. Ziebarth and my counselor, I finally transferred back. I was quite surprised to see the new organization of the desks and the whole new system. Getting used to it was difficult. Maybe because I came into the system late, but I still was confused with the objective of the system and what the packet given explained. “What is the DIY about?”, “What’s the final project supposed to be?”,”Are there any instructions with this that I have to follow?” and a whole slew of other questions clouded my mind. Even though I received answers a bunch of times, I ended up still confused and I wasn’t the only one. Maybe if the instructions were clear cut but still vague enough to allow imagination to take part then the objective would have been met satisfyingly. For example, the DIY project was supposed to be there to allow students to finally do something other than robotic paper and pencil work. Students were encouraged to do whatever they wanted and post evidence on their Tumblrs. OK. We did that. So some students practiced their baking and some still couldn’t choose. I, for one, practiced dancing and focused on one particular song with choreography. I thought that the final project was going to be the students showing off their newly-learned skill or whatever it was. Unfortunately, something was wrong and the DIY project disappeared. I believe that it would have been a success if the wanted end product was thoroughly explained. It may have been explained well but the result didn’t show that. If anything went satisfyingly well, it was the fourth quarter. We had a list of things to post up and we did just that. It would have been more amazing if we were able to do the DIY and tie it in with the Senior “What I Learned” project. If we knew what we were looking for then it would have turned out amazingly. It’s a lot better now than it was before although the whole year itself wasn’t all that bad. It was a very interesting experience- sometimes frustrating but sometimes very fun. I’ll miss this class, my classmates, and Mr. Z’s awesomeness a lot.
1. How does the narrator face his fears?
The narrator ends up not facing his fear because he didn’t have any fears in the beginning. He actually gained a fear after seeing his own “reflection” although he felt like it was not his own reflection. Because of the feeling the “reflection” gave him, he acted out and since then has been paranoid of mirrors. He is willing to talk about his fear however and now kind of even adapting to his fear in the way that he has learned to live without the use of mirrors.
2. What were you afraid of when you started high school?
When I first started high school, I was afraid of the school work and teachers. I had a tough time in middle school and did not do well although I did get along with my classmates and teachers. My sisters had gone to FVHS before I did and I’ve heard of many good and bad stories. The fear came from my own insecurity. My old school, Moiola, was not the best prep school for high school so going from one side of the school to the other and the whole of lockers was new to me (but not entirely). I had no idea how I was going to study and be able to stand the lectures. I was afraid of how the teachers would grade and how difficult the material would be.
3. What are you afraid of now that you’re leaving high school?
Now that I’m leaving high school, I’m afraid of making mistakes especially being on my own and the same as before- the way that the school system works. I know it’s not good but I feel like I still need a lot of guidance and while many other kids my age feel like they cannot wait until they gain much more freedom than they have now, I am not ready just yet. I may be a late bloomer but I know I am the type that is usually too afraid to move on. I’ve made bad mistakes in choosing my classes before and even though it’s not the end of the world, it’s effected me a lot. I’m afraid of making more mistakes like it.
4. What scares you about yourself?
What scares me about myself is that I can be very moody sometimes. I get effected by things around me very easily…I guess that means I am sensitive but rather in the way that when I am sleeping in the morning and someone wakes me up for a stupid reason, I get very, very angry and the whole becomes ruined. Sometimes I would snap at people without being aware of sounding so mean until they react in a different way than I expect. It scares me to know that I am able to hurt others. Even though I am aware of that, it still becomes uncontrollable sometimes.
5. How do/will you face your fears?
How I will face my fears is by telling my sisters and others around me that I don’t really mean to be mean sometimes. I know I will still have to go through anger spasms but I if I apologize to others afterwards then it should not be that bad. Other fears like death and the process of blood test/transfusions/giving/etc. , I will have to go through them because they are inevitable. They scare me a lot but I would have to breathe and accept them or something in order to live without being paranoid.
1. Narrator, “Our mother”, Mrs. Cuts, “My brother”, “Our father”, & Uncle Trash
2. The narrator is responsible, older than the brother, and is still a child. ”My brother” is innocent, younger than the narrator, and likes the stray dogs and wants to keep them. Uncle Trash is an alcoholic, loves to gamble, and is irresponsible. ”Our mother” leaves the family, leaves again after coming back, ans still loves the children because she kept their Easter drawings. ”Our father” wants his wife back, became angry at Uncle Trash after the house burnt down, and is impulsive since he chased after his wife right away. Mrs. Cuts somewhat cares for the kids, is a clean-freak, and is very aggressive.
3. Mostly through their actions. We know that the narrator is responsible because when no one was there to care for them, the narrator still knew how to take care of his/her brother and even Uncle Trash when he was hurt without freaking out.
4. “The touch of the match covers her like a blue-flame sweater. She’s a fireball shooting beneath the house.” is the sentence that stood out the most to me. It doesn’t directly tell the reader but we know that the dog has been lit on fire with the match and the bug spray. We also can assume that the house would catch on fire because of the dog. I like the “blue-sweater” because the imagery was vivid and the comparison was spot-on.
5. “I am burning hot…” is the most important part because it’s the turning point of the story. He’she finally shows the anger bottled up after having to deal with everything. Within the couple of sentences mentioning the “I am burning hot”, he’she sums the story up with how he/she is angry at his/her parents and Uncle Trash. The narrator still has that innocence in which he/she hasn’t experienced anger so it’s used with a child-like description.
6. Motifs: fire (“burning hot”,”don’t ya’ll…”), crops (as the time, “July corn”, “twisted corn”), dog (“stray dogs…”, “strays beneath the bed boards”)
7. Literally: Mother runs away, father chases after her, Uncle takes care of the children, and because of his irresponsibility, the house burns down.
Figuratively: The story is told through the eyes of the child and is written using the style of the child.
Thematically: The constant foreshadowing of the house burning down ultimately results the story in that happening. The motifs repeated throughout the story tie together in the end to finish it off with the burnt house, the stray dog causing the fire,and the mother running away into the corn field.
1. Mr. Arnold’s presentation thoroughly impressed me because of his passion he showed us. Before I even read the Invisible Man, I was grumbling because like many other seniors I just wanted to go home and not have to work. The Invisible Man excerpt has effected me deeply; It’s not just the plot and style of the story but also how it was taught and how finally I was happy to annotate something. This was the first time i was actually excited to annotate rip a piece apart-trying to find the profound meaning between the lines. I really liked Mr. Arnold’s enthusiasm and the in-your-face talks he gave especially because he did literally stare straight in my face from a foot away from my desk and yell towards me. His intention was not to yell at me because I did nothing wrong but to be as an example to show the feelings conveyed and make a point.
2a. The veil has been lifted off me through my teachers. There are many teachers, like Mr. Arnold or Mr. Gonzalez who have bluntly told of the real-life problems of life and the horrible world we have to face. They don’t fluff up our minds with flowery success stories but rather the issues that we face and the corruption within our society. One would feel the veil lifting because the veil is pretty see through but we choose to make up excuses and ignore the real problems that are there.
2b. The veil has been lowered on us through the lies given to us from ever since we have been born. “”Follow your heart and your dreams will come true” is definitely motivational and people hear it everywhere but happy endings are not always tangible. All teachers are part of a system that lowers the veil so even if we point them out for spoon-feeding us all the information and forcing us to regurgitate it, we can’t always blame them. I’m not saying that the information we learn is all useless but a lot of it is. I’ve been learning Pre-calculus and I know it may be crucial for some jobs but not as much as Statistics is. Even so, we have to learn it in order to “get anywhere in life” or rather anywhere in school.
3. It’s difficult to keep the veil from being lowered onto me because in order to succeed in society, I have to conform and allow the veil to be lowered and ignore some truths and allow some people to step over me. I can try and be my own boss and try to not trust everyone around me wholly. Learning of new perspectives of things and not submitting to one way of thinking would definitely help me from being submerged in darkness and become blinded.
4. Strays lifted the veil from me by setting up a new perspective through the narration of the innocent child we all once were or maybe even are now. The author makes a heart-breaking comparison between the children and the stray dogs. At such a young age, they have to face the abandonment of their parents and the other problems that escalate afterward including their Uncle Trash and his alcoholism and gambling addiction. Through their eyes and experience with the poverty and deprivation of love, readers are able to understand the horrible world and the new perspective helps the veil to be lifted.
CP English 4
3 March 2012
This I Believe
I am a child of fairness. I don’t understand why people say they hate Justin Bieber. Isn’t he a human like everyone else that has their own flaws? I don’t like him nor dislike him. I do respect him for being able to perform in front of millions and not freak out. I believe he has talent. I may not like his personality if I were to meet him and conversed a while with him-but I haven’t. I have never met the guy and so has the majority of the population so why does he have so many people hating on him? I believe that society might be venting on a guy that they think is inferior to them. There’s a saying that “haters gonna hate” just because they do and it’s inevitable. It’s a biased and sad way to think. Yes, it’s human nature to do so but can’t people realize that it’s bullying? It does more damage than it benefits with satisfying oneself and jumping onto the bandwagon.
I hear it everywhere, “Jeremy Lin is so overrated. So many people are talking about him all the time and he’s not even that good!” or “Those K-pop bands are so old-school, they totally stole the ideas from the Backstreet Boys.” I dislike saying it but it pisses me off. Jeremy Lin did nothing wrong for one to hate him like this: his career is in professional basketball, he may not be a nice person or he could be the best person you could ever meet, and he does his job and he’s pretty good at it-not worth hating on. American music may not have many groups but other countries do. Foreign groups are loved and more debut continuously because of the international success and positive feedback. They do have their pros and cons. I’ve been exposed to too many similar arguments. The daily struggles against these arguments upset me. I’ve had countless quarrels with people around me because I like to bring in the other perspective to an argument. I believe in the benefit of the doubt but most of the time, others can’t handle it. I’ve been scolded for being so unbiased and “arguing against my sister”. WHAT? It seems nonsensical, right? Unfortunately, society has been twisted to ignore and neglect the other perspective because of the fear of humiliation.
Peer pressure plays a huge part in things like this. If I were on a forum and proved a person’s accusation wrong, they’d cuss me out and probably change the subject to something inappropriate and immature. I’m used to being called the grandma because of my serious and maybe even belittling comments. I try to not just argue but agree. Yes, Rebecca Black is not amazing and her song might be lame but she may be a good person and at least she’s on-key. She doesn’t deserve the harsh backlash of people telling her to commit suicide. No one does. I’ve been asked as to why I can’t just side with the arguers sometimes, but I have to tell them that I just can’t because that’s not what I believe. I’m not saying that I’m a saint but I’d try my best to not jump to a conclusion not worth it. If someone were hurt because of a comment I’ve made, I wouldn’t shrug it off- I’d be guilty for the rest of my life. I am a child of fairness.
The songs I have chosen all have an impact on me because all of them have to do with me. The title of the concept for this mix-tape is Low Point. It consists lyrics to songs that describe my emotions and problems I had to deal with in Junior year in which my health was deteriorating and life seemed really difficult to continue. The audience I am aiming for are all other teenagers my age who are going through tough times. Most or all are in Korean but when I listen to them, I understand the feelings given off from the music. Though there is a language barrier, thanks to the Internet, translated lyrics are easy to find. It was difficult to find songs that would fit with my concept and I am very picky but thanks to Tablo and the rest (Epik High & MYK), it was easier on me. They don’t just concentrate on love but other equally important issues so it explains why all of them are of the same group but not all are of the same album.
Epik High-Over (video above)
-I can honestly say that I was an overachiever in certain things- more like a perfectionist but either way, I spent way to much time on certain things that I became more and more sleep deprived. My family would tell me to “chill” but no, I had to get hings right or else the the unsatisfactory result would make me anxious. The quote on the bottom brings up another point in which I ignored opportunities to actually live pass me by.
Opportunity is knocking at your doorBut you never left a welcome mat (it doesn’t matter anymore)Or anyhow, but you’re too late to turn backFate pushing you into the wall like a thumbtack
Epik High-Coffee http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vj-6r71K7FE
-translation: on video
-How this one related to me is that it explains how people are pressured into conforming. I saw my friend trying hard in school and though it’s not necessarily a bad thing, I was pressured to put 110% into everything to the point where I became obsessed with it. I was always hurrying and even when I wasn’t busy, I made myself busy- either with extra school-work or chores.
-translation: on video
-During my “low point” a lot of feelings became bottled up inside of me and one o them was loneliness. In this song, the lyrics come from the perspective of one that has great sadness and loneliness. Even though there were people around me, I still felt loneliness like no one understood me and the hardships I was facing. I was always surrounded by people but that made me more lonely than being by myself. I was even almost suffocated from the difference.
-translation: on video
-I remember having thought in my head just full of depression even though there was no cause or reason. In front of others I would “cry without tears”. Within tiny moments like these, I felt l asked “why me?” over and over again. I knew that others were suffering but the feeling was too great to overcome. I would just cry and cry. Sometimes I would just sit in my room and “without knowing, I’d cry”. This song has the power to describe and give the emotions of one moment in four minutes and a half.
-translation: on video
-I told others “to be straight” when I was “crooked” myself. One part especially stood out to me when Tablo said “The hand that gave you the shovel points fingers at you, And tells you that you dug your own grave” I had taken a class that I thought would be helpful for me for my future and even though I struggled in the lower level class, I thought I would do better the next time, even though it was an AP class. I told some people that I was going to take that AP class and they didn’t say much. Unfortunately, I failed it and the struggles I was going through consisted of the problems I was having in this class. Later on, those people pointed at me and told me that I dug my own grave. The feelings I received after hearing that is described through this song. I fought through the tide and ultimately drowned.
Epik High- Be http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-d0BAOG4OdI
-translation: on video
-Then, I was a puppet. I set myself up as one to impress people. I knew in order to get somewhere I’d have to conform. I tried to be whatever people wanted me to be. I never was pressured into abusing substances but with people filling my head up with success stories, I thought I had to go parallel with them and followed along- not going at my own pace. This song is simple but contains contradictory statements, describing how this person would literally lose individuality.
Tablo- Expiration Date http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4wD-fZu8Z0U&feature=related
-translation: on video
-I have to be honest. There were many times in which suicidal thoughts raced through my mind. I thought, ” Who would miss me if I died? I would be forgotten, right?” The seconds seemed like minutes and minutes went by like hours. The tempo of this song gives off that feeling.
Epik High- Slow Motion http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wfrd6Q3Hedw
-I got to the point where my state-of-mind was in between dream and reality. I was a walking zombie midst the fast-paced world. ”I lived life in slow-motion” and everything was routine.
MYK- Dazed and Amazed http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlyI0BUOZ8o
-Because life was in slow motion and I lost the rhythm I needed, I turned to music to get through the day. I would get lost in it and let the time pass “so I use[d] it to fuel my hunger to stay alive”.
Epik High- Run http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bg2Sq0rExo8
-translation: on video
-This part explains it all “It’s pitch dark. The world moves on too fast. I’m the only one who’s limping on both legs. The path I must walk is endless. What’s at the end of this path? Are you going there knowing about it? Will I learn the answers if I go there with my eyes closed? The sky that never responds to a such question. The two arms tied up by a daily life is too heavy to embrace dreams.” My pace could not keep up with the world and the path I was walking became longer and longer as I continued on it. I didn’t have a break and the pressure became more of a burden. I wanted to run away, through what way, I had no idea but because of this, my body broke down.
This I Believe Final: http://xnspirit.tumblr.com/post/23320118035/week-4-2
"Father died, mother remarried, son retaliated " - Xuan N. MrZ2 #hamlet #litin6
"One death results in six deaths" Xuan N. MrZ2 #hamlet #litin6
I would vote no on Prop. 28 because though it states that the term limits will be shortened to 12 years instead of the current 14 years, the intention of it’s makers was to extend the term time in office. At first, it sounds good to have a shorter term limit in order for new ideas to be spread but its actually the opposite. In between the lines, it actually allows politicians to be in the Assembly for 12 years and not the current 6 year limit. For Senate, Prop. 28 will allow politicians to stay for 12 years, not like the 8 year maximum. It’s true that Proposition 28 is backed by wealthy company owners that want to get their way. Because of restrictions placed on certain projects, they planned to bribe the Legislature by backing this proposition and attempt to prolong the term time for the politicians. This way, they would be able to win the favor of the legislature and get what they want. There is a loophole currently in law that allows certain legislatures to serve nearly 17 years and Proposition 28 claims to close it but there wouldn’t even be a loophole anymore because all the legislature would be allowed a long term limit. All it does is harm although there is no fiscal impact. If it does pass then it will allow those that take advantage of the bribe and those that will get what they want to win- and it does the opposite of what it seems to mean.